U/S tomorrow & nausea

So I woke up the past 3 days with nausea. Just nausea and today I finally dry heaved in the shower. How lovely! I'm kinda confused because I had 2 crackers & some coke in hopes to calm my stomach. I feel so much better when I have something in my belly. But none of that came up!?! I know everyone else would move on but its the medical side coming out of me...Sorry to gross anyone out. And DH didn't even check on me!!! MEANIE! I'm carrying your 'seed'!!!! <---I so hope you read this Mike! ;-)

Anyway...my nausea is not well controlled it lasts up until after work. So I feel like I'm the new girl who is the world's biggest slacker always taking breaks. And today they were long....I sat in a chair with a trash can in front of me waiting to puke. I kept telling myself...you'll feel better afterwards, I promise. I'm not a fan of hugging the throne. It just feels dirty and disgusting to me. I dunno why...

So after my dance class tonight I think I'm off to the store to look for a) sea bands b) cola syrup c) ginger & d) lemon drops. Any other suggestions??

I hate that I've turned into a pregnant girl that wants to bitch all the time. I remember promising myself after all my losses that I wouldn't but its almost impossible. Its not fun but I'm so grateful for every reminder and wouldn't change it for the world, as long as I stay pregnant with a healthy baby!!!

Anyway...tomorrow is the big u/s. We find out if we have a heartbeat. I haven't been too worried about it. I'm sure in the morning I will be having a panic attack in between throwing up breakfast. The morning/all day sickness is reassuring to me. Though I'm not sure I can handle it for the next few weeks. :-( Its tough to get up in the morning when all you want to do is lay in bed and fall back asleep. :::YAWN::: Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....opps sorry!

Any positive vibes or prayers are much appreciated!!!!!

First u/s

So we had our first u/s today and everything looks right on track. This isn't a great shot but hey its the only picture I got. ;-)
There is a gestational sac (as if you can't tell) and a yolk sac. We expect to see a heartbeat next Thursday. So I can breath until then.

This so doesn't seem real, we've made it to 8 weeks before but we never saw a yolk sac. Its weird. I know I'm pregnant but I'm almost still in shock and disbelief. Also my Progesterone was 34.6.

Oh and they confirmed that the corpus luteum (sp) has reared its ugly head and that has been whats causing my left sided discomfort. Sorry for the short update hubby is calling me for dinner.

My heart is heavy....

Let's get the not so good news out of the way. The not so good news weighs on my heart very heavily. Yesterday I found out that one of our nesties who I've been following her blog religiously for the past few months gave birth to her son and lost him 16 minutes after she gave birth. They knew this was a strong possibility after their 12 week u/s and the doctors said something wasn't right. If you haven't heard Stacy, Spencer, & Issac's story here is a link to her blog called He Will Carry Me.

Its unbelievable how strong Stacy and Spencer have been throughout their entire pregnancy. Not losing their faith in God and believing in the possibility of a miracle. Her story gave many of us nesties hope, faith, and made some us re-examine our relationship with God. Its just an incredible story. I sit here and I can't believe what they have been through, I would have never handled it as well as they did.

I would really like to go to Issac's memorial service on October 18th to show my love and support. I don't feel obligated...I don't know Stacy or Spencer personally but on the PL, TTCAL, & SAL boards we are family and I want to be there for them. I feel a little weird but I think its so important to show them our love and support right now. Please let me know if anyone is considering on going. Also in honor of Issac, a playground is being built at their church and they are accepting donations. You can find more info on Stacy's blog.

So with that, I have nothing to bitch or complain about. I feel blessed to have sore boobs, food cravings, to feel fat & bloated, to be exhausted as all hell and to be able to jump down my husband's throat at a moments notice. ;-) He loves that by the way but sometimes I can't help it.

Anyway....my u/s is tomorrow and I would appreciate any positive vibes and or prayers. I'm nervous but hopeful. I'm anxious because the last time I was pregnant and got the chance to have an u/s it turned out to be a blighted ovum. I hope that their is more to see for some reassurance!

Course of action

So..FINALLY I got to sit down with my Dr. and ask where we go from here. My Dr. is a very compassionate, understanding, and thoughtful man. Which is very helpful in this frustrating process. He, however, is very conservative and does not rush into anything. Which in some ways is good, in other ways it can be more frustrating.

At our appointment we discuss the next step in this process. The one diagnostic test we did not do is a sonohysterogram. A sonohysterogram is a vaginal u/s that uses a saline solution to enhance your uterus. It can detect abnormalities such as fibroids, pylops, scar tissue, or abnormalities of your uterine lining. The RE believes nothing will come of this u/s but wants to rule everything out.

We will not have the u/s until next cycle, hopefully beginning of October. I am to call as soon as AF arrives and the u/s needs to occur before ovulation. However, we are NOT putting off TTC this month. Yes, this risks another m/c but we are willing to take that risk at this point. Why continue to wait?

We also discussed whether progesterone was a problem and he said that he does not believe so. My progesterone dropped very quickly with Baby #3 because my hcg was dropping. Hcg therefore controls progesterone, or is at least suppose to. That's not to say that I don't have a luteal phase defect. So we'll see what the sonohysterogram says and go from there. The next step would be Clomid, at least in my mind.

Hopefully, we will become pregnant with our sticky baby this cycle and not have to worry about it. But I'm glad we have a course of action finally!!! Please continue to pray for us!!!

The last thing the RE did was look me in the eye and ask "putting all the physical stuff a side, how are you?" I told him for the most part I was still pretty numb. I told him we were prepared for the worst this time and not that it isn't devastating each time it happens but in a sense it is easier, I don't get my hopes up and I know what to expect emotionally and physically. It meant a lot for him to ask me this. He definitely heard that I was upset about my other appt because he said this u/s will be schedule with me and no one else.

Other than that...my first creative movement class was last night. Only 2 girls showed up but I was still thankful for that. I was a little discouraged afterwards but Mike said "ya know you only started this company a month ago" and he's right. I can't expect to have 5 girls in each class especially since this is not my full time job. So that made me feel better. Well I'm off to go have dinner and get some rest. I haven't been sleeping the greatest.