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Your little embryo has now officially graduated to fetus-hood. Adding to the excitement, a Doppler ultrasound device might be able to pick up the beating heart. With basic physical structures in place and increasingly distinct facial features, baby is kind of starting to look like... well... a baby!

So now that I've updated you on how big our baby is...let's talk about what's been going on....

I sit here with my pants unbuttoned, feeling & looking like I'm well over 3-4 months pregnant thats how lovely my bloat is. My boobs feel like water balloons that will burst any moment. Unhooking the bra now as well.

I'm starting to get anxious for our u/s next Thursday at 9:45 AM. I haven't had an u/s in 2 weeks now. So....I'm trying to stay positive and we are even starting to throw around names. Yea I know its a little early but....that's what expecting parents do. I think we are starting to believe that this time around....its the real deal. I haven't touched a single baby book. Nope, not until its time....or I actually have the time because lately I'm napping, watching TV, or eating if I'm not at work or dance.

I hate to be the one who is the downer but so far this pregnancy hasn't been all that fun. I work, teach dance, & go to bed....sometimes while nausea and my zofran just isn't doing the trick. I know it will go away but I hate getting off work because a) I don't want to cook a damn thing (because I'm too lazy, I'm craving something else, and the smell of something cooking makes me wanna hurl) and b) I've fallen so behind on my house work its NOT even funny!! I can't find the energy to do any of it. I'm in bed most nights between 7 & 9. Mike and I haven't had sex....ok all of one time.....and I felt like I was going to hurl. So its not fun, but that doesn't mean I'm not grateful or thankful for this baby. I just don't want to go through all this for nothing. It's not a fear anymore....its just I DON'T WANNA!

Mike has been pretty good & has taken over some of the house work. However, he recently hurt his back pretty bad and hasn't been able to help nearly as much. I'm ready to hire help. I'm desperate!!! Mike's been getting a lil angry at me because of eating out a lot and because I'm not eating all that healthy. :::Sigh::: I promised I would....but I'm thankful I can eat and keep what I eat down. I'm hoping I'll have a better appetite come the 2nd trimester.

Sorry no belly pics here. Mike is a sour puss and refuses to let me post any. :-P Poo on him!!!

PS Forgot to tell ya'all that we told my family & Mike's family. We need the support either way.

PSS I apologize to all my nesties....I haven't been on much....I know...but usually I'm in bed at this time. ;-)

Our Baby

And we have a heartbeat....

Yes its official! We have a baby with a heart rate of 118 bpm. It kinda sucks cuz Mike is telling everyone and I'm still like ok we aren't outta the woods yet. I know it sounds crazy and it sounds like I'm not being optimistic but...I dunno. It stinks that I can't be all excited. I mean I am...but I can't fully enjoy it, so it seems.

Anyway...hearing and seeing the little flicker on the screen was amazing. I'm measuring right on time. Of course, they never give me a specific week & day but oh well.

I was given Zofran to take because I have not been taking my antibiotic as prescribed for my sinus infection because I was terrified it would def make me puke. So we'll see if that helps. I feel like a baby and a whiner. I don't want to be Wendy Whiner but I guess I'll suck it up and just take it. If its whats best for the baby I'll do anything.

Ultrasound pic to come....

Of course I'm sick....

So finally we see what we are suppose to see at our 6 week u/s and less than 2 days later I'm sick as a dog. Really, is this necessary? I just want a healthy baby!!! I'm terrified that if we don't see a hb this week I will blame myself. I hardly had anything to eat in the past 24 hours but DH made me eat some peanut butter toast and drink some OJ and get a shower. I hate to admit it but he's right, I do feel better.

At one point yesterday I coughed, hiccuped and than thought I was going to puke. Sorry for the TMI, but it was the worse feeling ever. I pretty much laid around and slept as much as I could. I was miserable between the sore throat and barely be able to swallow all the extra saliva to feeling like I was gonna barf on any moments notice. WHY NOW? I need to be healthy! I need to support this baby. I can't be NOT eating. ARGH! Sorry I'm frustrated and still feel like crap!

Should be fun explaining to my new boss that I need some time off to go to the Dr's because I'm sick and pregnant and really need to take care of myself. BTW, my new boss already knows I'm pregnant and has been extremely supportive. Which is good...but I still feel guilty being the newbie and not feeling like I'm contributing as much as I should.

First u/s

So we had our first u/s today and everything looks right on track. This isn't a great shot but hey its the only picture I got. ;-)
There is a gestational sac (as if you can't tell) and a yolk sac. We expect to see a heartbeat next Thursday. So I can breath until then.

This so doesn't seem real, we've made it to 8 weeks before but we never saw a yolk sac. Its weird. I know I'm pregnant but I'm almost still in shock and disbelief. Also my Progesterone was 34.6.

Oh and they confirmed that the corpus luteum (sp) has reared its ugly head and that has been whats causing my left sided discomfort. Sorry for the short update hubby is calling me for dinner.

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Yup that is my new hcg number at approximately 16 dpo. AHHHH!!! They more then did what they were suppose to do from 10 dpo!! If my math is right 12 dpo should have been 48, 14 dpo should have been 96, and today should have been 182. My goal was 500 though. :::Wiping away the sweat from my brow::: All afternoon I was almost panicking, not that it does any good. My heart once again is racing from this good news. My progesterone went from 21 to 30. I can't believe it! I'm just so relieved!

Next big day is 10/9....for my first u/s. I've never seen anything but a gestational sac. I figure I'll be about 5 1/2 - 6 weeks pregnant by that time so a yolk sac :::crossing my fingers::: hopefully will be there and a heartbeat would be absolutely F($&ing FANTASTIC!!!!

I still haven't figured out my EDD or how far along I am. Maybe I'll go do that when I'm done. I've just been too nervous. But now that I know this isn't just another CP....I'm feeling super optimistic.

I've also realized with this pregnancy that this is out of my control. My little one is in God's hands and as much as I want a baby here on Earth I've come to the conclusion that I'm ok if that is not God's plan for this pregnancy. In some way its peaceful to know that my baby may be too perfect for Earth and God has other plans for him or her. I didn't realize or accept this during any of my other pregnancies so I'm looking at this as a good sign. It's outta my hands and all I can do is pray and think positively and somehow enjoy every minute of this pregnancy.

4th BFP in 1 year

As most of you know, I got my 4th BFP in 1 year. I tested 3 times since Thursday and the line keeps getting darker which reassures me! SEE....I'm positive this time around but it also scares me because I felt this way during my pregnancy with my blighted ovum. So please send some positive vibes our way, we are totally approaching this pregnancy with caution. Its so hard not to get our hopes up!!



So yesterday Mike and I went down to the WVU vs Marshall game. We had a great time. Thought I would post some pics. Professional player for Seahawks from WVU, Owen Schmidt showed up at the game which was really nice to see he hasn't forgotten about us! WE LOVE OWEN!! Still sporting his mohawk. Just a little backround...Owen was a walk on 4-5 years ago who broke 11 face masks during his college career. Check out a clip on youtube from one of his last games last year. My husband is wearing off on me way too much. Don't ya think? Oh well...he said Owen is one of his all time favorite players so I better know all that I know about him.

Here is another photo of Mike and I. It was starting to rain so I got my rain gear on quickly. Please ignore the nice zit on my chin.

One last photo of my offensive boys Pat White #5, Noel Devine #7, & Jock Sanders #9.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

4th BFP....

That's right...I haven't announced it yet but I'm getting ready to at least on TTCAL. Few select people know this time around. I did go for betas yesterday they were 24 and progesterone Dr. said was a "healthy 21". WOO HOO!! ::WANTED:: STICKY DUST FOR A STICKY BABY!!!