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Yup that is my new hcg number at approximately 16 dpo. AHHHH!!! They more then did what they were suppose to do from 10 dpo!! If my math is right 12 dpo should have been 48, 14 dpo should have been 96, and today should have been 182. My goal was 500 though. :::Wiping away the sweat from my brow::: All afternoon I was almost panicking, not that it does any good. My heart once again is racing from this good news. My progesterone went from 21 to 30. I can't believe it! I'm just so relieved!

Next big day is 10/9....for my first u/s. I've never seen anything but a gestational sac. I figure I'll be about 5 1/2 - 6 weeks pregnant by that time so a yolk sac :::crossing my fingers::: hopefully will be there and a heartbeat would be absolutely F($&ing FANTASTIC!!!!

I still haven't figured out my EDD or how far along I am. Maybe I'll go do that when I'm done. I've just been too nervous. But now that I know this isn't just another CP....I'm feeling super optimistic.

I've also realized with this pregnancy that this is out of my control. My little one is in God's hands and as much as I want a baby here on Earth I've come to the conclusion that I'm ok if that is not God's plan for this pregnancy. In some way its peaceful to know that my baby may be too perfect for Earth and God has other plans for him or her. I didn't realize or accept this during any of my other pregnancies so I'm looking at this as a good sign. It's outta my hands and all I can do is pray and think positively and somehow enjoy every minute of this pregnancy.