My heart is heavy....

Let's get the not so good news out of the way. The not so good news weighs on my heart very heavily. Yesterday I found out that one of our nesties who I've been following her blog religiously for the past few months gave birth to her son and lost him 16 minutes after she gave birth. They knew this was a strong possibility after their 12 week u/s and the doctors said something wasn't right. If you haven't heard Stacy, Spencer, & Issac's story here is a link to her blog called He Will Carry Me.

Its unbelievable how strong Stacy and Spencer have been throughout their entire pregnancy. Not losing their faith in God and believing in the possibility of a miracle. Her story gave many of us nesties hope, faith, and made some us re-examine our relationship with God. Its just an incredible story. I sit here and I can't believe what they have been through, I would have never handled it as well as they did.

I would really like to go to Issac's memorial service on October 18th to show my love and support. I don't feel obligated...I don't know Stacy or Spencer personally but on the PL, TTCAL, & SAL boards we are family and I want to be there for them. I feel a little weird but I think its so important to show them our love and support right now. Please let me know if anyone is considering on going. Also in honor of Issac, a playground is being built at their church and they are accepting donations. You can find more info on Stacy's blog.

So with that, I have nothing to bitch or complain about. I feel blessed to have sore boobs, food cravings, to feel fat & bloated, to be exhausted as all hell and to be able to jump down my husband's throat at a moments notice. ;-) He loves that by the way but sometimes I can't help it.

Anyway....my u/s is tomorrow and I would appreciate any positive vibes and or prayers. I'm nervous but hopeful. I'm anxious because the last time I was pregnant and got the chance to have an u/s it turned out to be a blighted ovum. I hope that their is more to see for some reassurance!