9w5d

Your little embryo has now officially graduated to fetus-hood. Adding to the excitement, a Doppler ultrasound device might be able to pick up the beating heart. With basic physical structures in place and increasingly distinct facial features, baby is kind of starting to look like... well... a baby!

So now that I've updated you on how big our baby is...let's talk about what's been going on....

I sit here with my pants unbuttoned, feeling & looking like I'm well over 3-4 months pregnant thats how lovely my bloat is. My boobs feel like water balloons that will burst any moment. Unhooking the bra now as well.

I'm starting to get anxious for our u/s next Thursday at 9:45 AM. I haven't had an u/s in 2 weeks now. So....I'm trying to stay positive and we are even starting to throw around names. Yea I know its a little early but....that's what expecting parents do. I think we are starting to believe that this time around....its the real deal. I haven't touched a single baby book. Nope, not until its time....or I actually have the time because lately I'm napping, watching TV, or eating if I'm not at work or dance.

I hate to be the one who is the downer but so far this pregnancy hasn't been all that fun. I work, teach dance, & go to bed....sometimes while nausea and my zofran just isn't doing the trick. I know it will go away but I hate getting off work because a) I don't want to cook a damn thing (because I'm too lazy, I'm craving something else, and the smell of something cooking makes me wanna hurl) and b) I've fallen so behind on my house work its NOT even funny!! I can't find the energy to do any of it. I'm in bed most nights between 7 & 9. Mike and I haven't had sex....ok all of one time.....and I felt like I was going to hurl. So its not fun, but that doesn't mean I'm not grateful or thankful for this baby. I just don't want to go through all this for nothing. It's not a fear anymore....its just I DON'T WANNA!

Mike has been pretty good & has taken over some of the house work. However, he recently hurt his back pretty bad and hasn't been able to help nearly as much. I'm ready to hire help. I'm desperate!!! Mike's been getting a lil angry at me because of eating out a lot and because I'm not eating all that healthy. :::Sigh::: I promised I would....but I'm thankful I can eat and keep what I eat down. I'm hoping I'll have a better appetite come the 2nd trimester.

Sorry no belly pics here. Mike is a sour puss and refuses to let me post any. :-P Poo on him!!!

PS Forgot to tell ya'all that we told my family & Mike's family. We need the support either way.

PSS I apologize to all my nesties....I haven't been on much....I know...but usually I'm in bed at this time. ;-)