World = upside down

So I feel like my life has been turned upside down in the past year and someone continues to shake the shit outta it. ::Sigh:: This is not how I wanted to feel going into the weekend. I'm miserable. I literally want to go curl up in a ball in bed bawl my eyes out and fall asleep and not wake up until this nightmare is over. I feel like nothing is stable in my life and I have no control over it. I only have control over myself, but its funny I don't even have control over that, at least not my own body or I would have a baby. I would be a mother to a 1 month old, I would be 5 months pregnant, or I would be 6 weeks pregnant.

So here's my day......my usual shit at work and then one of my best friends at work texts me and told me she had some good news and bad news. BTW, this is my next door neighbor. She tells me they are moving but staying in town. Now before you judge me....I'm upset because her 5 y.o. daughter told us 2 weeks ago. She told me they've had the key and have been fixing it up since Monday since they signed the papers. That they didn't want anyone to know until it was final. Its now Friday, and she is telling me. I'm disappointed. I totally know she needs to do what is right for her and her family but....her daughter told me and she didn't want to tell me face to face because she thought I would cry and than she would.

If this is the first time you are reading my blog please note I AM AN ONLY CHILD. I realize I can be selfish and I obviously don't want my best friend to move. I swear some days she is the only reason I'm sane. I don't handle change well. I've moved 2 times in my lifetime. Once when I was 3 and then when I was 21 moving in with DH.

To make matters worse I was upset this afternoon at work about this and got a text from my boss after I left why I was upset and he thought it had to do with him. Yadda Yadda Yadda. It has turned into a texting war for almost 2 hours now about work. After I wrote that we could talk about this Monday and I wanted to enjoy my weekend.

I can't keep this up!! I really can't!!